Accept

December arrived, that is when I was borned :D

The weather have been pretty cold and windy which is a perfect combo for me cause I like it chilly. When I watch and see the reaction of humans towards these changes, it's kinda shocking. Weather is something given to us by God, something that only He can change. We can't make summer when it's snowing outside. We can't make the sun shine when it's raining. That is the reality that we have to first accept.

          We were so angry that it was hot outside and we were sweating. When we were blessed with a cold weather, we whine around saying that the cold was going to freeze us and we will die. Why do we have to be so fussy? Can't we just accept what we have for now? Are we God to decide what is best for the world? If we really can't take the weather, just make a move. If you can't, maybe that is the best for you. Just try to accept the fact that we are the slave. Slave to God. Slaves don't rule everything. Slaves take orders. We have to take and accept what is given. At least we are given something. So many things are given to us free.
       
          He gives us our body that we can't simply buy anywhere. It's priceless. The heart beat that is still pounding. Can you imagine where will we be if it stops? Will we be dead? Yes, of course we will. Just the things inside us, They are all amazing. Imagine what we are with any of them missing. Maybe we will not die but we are missing some part of us now. Won't we feel incomplete?

          If you are really feeling so hot, sweating or maybe too cold that you're freezing, just hang in there for a while cause when time comes, it will be either colder or hotter. For now, just enjoy the moment cause it is a Cycle. :D

Don'tShutMeOffJustLikeThat

What were you thinking?

When you shut me off like that

I was just being another of us

I was just explaining my confusion

Was I going against the rule?

Isn't being cruel going against the rule then?

Ridiculous it is

I can't talk 

Cause it's meaningless say you

Yet your vacant words are meaty?

Through all that dreadful killing phrase you said

I was patient 

Only this once

I expressed my curiosity, 

My anxiety 

Can't you just listened?

As much as I listened to you

Can't you

Those hurting phrase

I tried to ignore them

Tried to shut them off

But they keep coming

What is there left for me to do?

I can't shut my ear with these fingers

Cause its already in me

Flowing in me - firm

You told me to set a good example

But I can't find any good in you

Which example am I to follow?

Shutting me off like that

When I was questioning your example

Should I shut you off too 

When You question mine?

ButYouSaidYouCared

That abusive words you say

That thing that you use to hit her

Those are what make the monster she is today

Don't blame her for being a child that she is

A child who follow her desire

Child who you were before

What she is now

is nothing worst than what we was

Your reaction were unpredictable

Maybe you should read the Ruqyah to yourself

I think there might be a jinn in you

Causes such anger

Or are you tired?

As in I'm not tired at all?

Not tired of All your bullshit?

Think about it again.

No need for such pain

She grew up in much pain already

Don't compare yours and hers

What God created for us are never the same

That is what you can cope with

You are strong

But you can't expect her to be as you

I respect you as you are

Blame me for not having the courage

To tell you how it is wrong

To tell you how I am not agree with what you did

Yes, I am weak

Forgive me for that~

My lovely sister

"Hello  everyone .

I am Anfal Adib bte Abdul Majid 

I want to writing about my sister, Dahuq, she is a good girl, I like her, she is the best sister ever.

I love her

She teaches me in my studies and how to cycle.  

This blog is her blog, she let me use it. She is like my mother."

Rise

He put me down
When I needed him the most
He cut the tie
And let me go
Deep into this hole of my heart

I fell before
You came and bring light
I got so bright, so high
You were my life
The reason for me to still stand
When again I fell,
I fell crashing
The momentum was huge




Can't you take me back?
Fix this pieces of mine
Levitate this heart of mine
I begged
But till now he is never here
This desert dry me off
There's no love anymore

I'm hoping for the rain
Even for awhile
It doesn't matters
But he wasn't coming
I felt so lonely
No one was there
I'm waiting while tears fell
On this cold cheek of mine
Drenched my sorrow away

But GOD, You were there while he wasn't
My Lord, YOU were here
When he left me
It's a pain now
How I ignored this beauty love of Yours
I was lost with no direction
Forgetting that You were my goal
And forever will you be



Smiling here now
Looking at the past
When You saved me
From the dark part of that love
That hate
From the sorrow that kills me inside
Into this love I rise

~ I'm pale cause you're here~

Tired

Im tired of this life
Where people just being selfish
Thinking of nothing
But only themselves
As if the world only goes around them
As if I am their slave
To devote my life for them
For their freaking own life
Do they not see ME?

They are tired?
Trying to tell me I am not?
What about ME?
If everyone is tired
And everyone throws faces
Showing their emotions
Wouldn't it make it worst?
Huh?

I was fine
But now, I am tired
Tired of you
Cause everything is just about you.

Maybe
Just maybe
I AM THEM.

remain forgotten

It is just sad to see things change. So fast that at one point we stop and take our time looking back at a place called yesterday. Yesterday, when everything was fine. No war. No fight. Just you, me and us.

That was an intro. An introduction to...

Today.

With this simple phrase, I start. This writing is what I think of Today. What we should together do for a better Today from my view. A view of another one of you.

There is unjust everywhere

Greed is our scenery

Ungrateful in each heartbeat 

Directed by blind we travel across

Simply to make our world a miserable place

Leading this nation blindly

We determined to win

Celebrating the success with hate

not with love

We are in thirst

We choose to drink the sea water 

instead of the river

We become dehydrated 

We die in thirst of Love.

Blinded with wealth

Indeed we forgot

With envy we killed

The dead is forgotten 

History become his story

A story of others that fade

Falling into the same hole

Indeed we forget

Surat At- Taubah [9 : 25]

لَقَدْ نَصَرَكُمُ اللَّهُ فِي مَوَاطِنَ كَثِيرَةٍ وَيَوْمَ حُنَيْنٍ إِذْ أَعْجَبَتْكُمْ كَثْرَتُكُمْ فَلَمْ تُغْنِ عَنكُمْ شَيْئًا وَضَاقَتْ عَلَيْكُمُ الْأَرْضُ بِمَا رَحُبَتْ ثُمَّ وَلَّيْتُم مُّدْبِرِينَ

Allah has already given you victory in many regions and [even] on the day of Hunayn, when your great number pleased you, but it did not avail you at all, and the earth was confining for you with its vastness; and then you turned back, fleeing. 

poem : W I N D

Wind..
They just float, free in the sky
Not clinging to the gravity
Free in its own way
No worries being hit, being cut or cutting others
Simply, there bringing joy to everyone
To itself
If only, if only feelings are just like the wind
It's just free
Easy blowing its own way
With no worries, calm
Despite the crush, it brings joy
If only word are like wind
Its crush brings joy
Words that bring cold breeze to the sweating travelers
How I hope feelings can be easily put in words
Just like the winds making its own way through the hot air.

The Best Gift!

Few days back, I talk about change and how I want to change this world starting by changing myself.
What encourage me more is seeing my sister actually change! She was different before. She used to watch movies a lot, hear all kind of music and do what most of the others do. I remembered that she used to pray very fast :). But at one point, she change! Well, everyone has their turning point. Hers was really a complete change. I am so proud of her that I can't describe how grateful I am.

I don't know what makes she change but as far as I know, she starts hearing lectures from scholars and get amazed by Brother Nouman Ali khan's talk and she kept watching his talk that it actually changes her. All praise and thanks to Allah!. She change a lot that she starts to read quran everyday, learn tafseer and arabic. She prays well do rawathib. I was like WOW! Now, I am amazed by her! This make me realize and learn.

I kept asking myself everyday. Why can she change but why can't I?
Why can she be someone better but why can't I?
Allah promised me that He will help. But His help will only come after we try.
So, I tell myself, this means I have not try my best yet.
Allah can't be lying. It is impossible that He break His promise.

Well, if I say O Allah help me, I don't want to watch dramas anymore, it can't be possible until I myself stop watching. Stop and Allah will protect me from the addict.
If I keep saying O Allah, show me the path, but I do nothing, It won't make sense. I will have to search and read. Then, Allah will help me in understanding because guidance is belongs to Him. We try and He decide if He want to give the guidance or not all base on how much we try and our trust on Allah cause Allah says that He is what His slave think. If we think that He will not forgive us, He will never do. If we think that He is always there for us, He will always guide us. He will forever be there and guide us.
After all, He is the Owner and we are His slave..
We are so blessed to be His slave. The best gift!

Bayyinah.TV

Yesterday was the best day ever in my life.
The day that I got to actually rediscover surah Al- Fatihah by Brother Nouman Ali Khan himself.
He came to Singapore for the lecture and it was super awesome!
What we think about surah Al- Fatihah is not just what we think. It is more. Much more than that. It's incredible.
Well, I'm sort of promoting Bayyinah TV to you guys. Please subscribe! It is so cheap and you can just watch it everyday every time. You can share the password with your family! You're paying less than $9 per month for the whole family. How cool is that? There is tafseer lecture, you can learn arabic and many more. All in a very simple way. My sister subscibes for our family so I know how worth it is.

I've told you so, it is up to you guys now to decide!

Here is an examples of Tafseer lecture that he gave in Bayyinah.tv:

You guys can have a sneak peak of it in youtube for more.
If you want to subscribe or watch the sneak peak of the Arabic lecture,
here is the link : Bayyinah.TV .
Hope you guys subscribe!